I wish I had more friends. More friends that are guys. I literally only have friends that are girls and yeah they're amazing and I love them... But I need like a guy to talk to sometimes... A break from the girls to be fair!

Ngl I realised today that I can touch people's boobs and arses and they kinda expect it of me... Don't know if I should be proud or embarassed!

I need to get fit for next summer! I don't care I'm not going to Kent I hate it there and I'm 16 so I can stay home alone!


I don't think you realise how much I like you. You're effortlessly flawless. You're quite literally perfect and you need me more than your friends tbh! I think however I need to move on! cause it's so pointless! Someone like you wouldn't look twice at me! :S

I actually care FAR too much what certain people think about me!
Some I couldn't give a flying fuck but some... I have to be better than me around.
You're one of them and I dont think you realise how much it hurts when you casually brush me off like I'm nothing and just run off with your better looking or funnier or more entertaining friends.
I guess I'm nothing to you so... Nothing is what I shall be for you now and when you come crawling back to me and you will mark my words. My cup of care will be empty

I love Keziah and I think lately we've got closer and I really like her! She's a babe and the best advice giver (: Yep she's gr8!

Hmm I need to work out how to move on so... Maybe if I get to know you a lot then I might see you as a dick but I don't think I'll ever see that in your eyes. omfg they're beautiful!

I feel like crap :/
1) I don't see the point in liking them. I can't ever get them
a) I'm no where near their traits
i) Their's fantastic looking
ii) They have got so many friends their so much nicer than me etc
iii) No one ever likes me or looks at me in a sexual way even if they did I'm too easily embarassed to take compliments e.g. today Laurel was talking about how muscular I am and I literally went bright red :/
c) Their eyes alone have more sexiness radiating than my whole body does
2) I have literally no marketable talents and this whole As level thing is killing me and I have no idea whether or not I'm good enough to be good enough for basically life :/

I'm not good at relationships etc I hate people being near or touching me.
I dislike most people and I get bored easily

And that's how freddie Cs it

I wonder if anyone still comes on here other than me!
I feel like shit. To be fair... You say how much I'm your bestfriend but then choose someone who annoys you over me... Makes me feel like I'm annoying you or worse.

I need to work out how to move on! I'm shite at this! I don't know I don't talk to you and you're faar out of this munter's league.


Naomi says I'm not ugly but then when you see me before: Braces, ears pinned back, a shower and a toothbrush  then I'm literally below any league you can imagine!

Just worried, lonely and a bit a lot of a twat!

Worried: Why don't you talk to me I'm scared for you. So bad!

Lonely: LOL I don't need to go on!

Sitting here reading the sad little life of a young Freddie

So apparently I was into the Twilight saga. I was arguing and I had a HUGE crush on Maddie
I've grown up a lot since I was last here a few months ago. I don't moan about stupid things and I feel closer to people I'd never even spoken to and I don't even talk to people I used to be joined at the hip with.

I'm more open about who I am, my views are stronger but I don't know I feel more alone than ever and I know it seems like all I do is moan to people I care a lot about and I'm not going to do it again.
I'm gonna go to Alice's tomorrow and I don't care I will have a good time even if I will be intimidated by certain people going.

I'm a lot more insecure now. I notice silly things about the way I look like silly hairs out of place(on my head don't think like that I still have a month and 9 days til I'm legal.), spots,  Ugh THEY ARE THE BAIN OF MY EXSISTANCE.

Sorry for this I have no one to rant to, everyone has their own problems.

... People Are Gone So Im Backk(;

I've felt like complete shit for ages.
but idek why,
fml.